We’ve all had that moment, lets be honest, the one where you’re in a bad spot in life and something that happens just makes you realise just how bad it is. 
I had that moment tonight, while with the Brownies & Guides. I love running meetings for those kids (If you haven’t noticed from my previous blogs) and then tonight I just didn’t even want to be with them. I honestly just wanted to be on my own somewhere else, seriously secluded from the whole world on my own. So I proceeded to ensure that the young leaders knew exactly what they were doing and set them on task to run the meeting for the night (There were 3 of them with around 10 girls it wasn’t too traumatic) while I did paperwork. I just wanted to shut myself out. 

Now I know what is causing me the problems and why I feel this way and trust me I am trying to get out of it I am doing everything in my damn power to make things better for myself but through no fault of my own it’s simply not possible. *sighs* 

So what do you all do when you hit that point? I’m usually a positive person but lately I’ve just found myself more and more lost, confused, down, just wanting to shut myself out and tonight really really made it hit home. 

I even left the meeting feeling deflated and just wanting to come home, snuggle up in bed and forget the world. 

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