Things to be thankful for…..

I just thought I’d share something, since lately I’ve been feeling really down I took it upon myself to make a thankful book. Basically I have to write in it everyday 5 things I’m thankful for…I can’t repeat anything over a few days it has to be completely different. It can be something big or something small, something important or something silly.
Just so long as even on a crappy day I appreciate the good things. I’ve also starting throwing in good quotes and GMHs.
It’s working so far, I’m only a day in but it’s seeming to help so I thought I’d share some of my current thankfuls…..

• Discovering a side to a person you didn’t know was there, a good side!
• Hugs from people when you really need them, without even having to ask. (A few people recently)
• People who even if I’ve been out of touch with them for a while, they’ll still help you out and do all they can for you, even without you asking. (A Guiding friend who I haven’t spoken to in a while)
• People whose excitement and happiness is infectious, even from a distance (www.jillandkate.wordpress.com -These girls!)
• Talking your worlds worries out with your best friend and them talking out theirs too you and somehow it all feels better!
• Ben & Jerry’s Ice cream – It solves all problems….it’s a known fact haha

So if you’re feeling down I really suggest you start one of these books. I’m going to try and read it back every few months or so just to show there is good stuff in my life to myself.

So…..

Well I haven’t been blogging a lot mainly because I fear the result will just be lots of very depressed blogging the end of 2009 is not treating me or my family well *sighs* I’m hoping for a better 2010 so I’m just looking forward to that really.

I’m still job hunting and failing miserably at getting a job. I’ve resigned myself to the fact that I am going to have to do office work since getting work in anything in the entertainment industry is pretty much impossible (Anyone out there in anything to do with music, tv, radio, photography, media in general wants to hire me for management related areas….even as a lacky! right now I’d do anything just to be doing something in the area I love *sighs*)

On a lighter note I haven’t blogged about my new baby nephew…..Thomas James, named after my Grandad and he was also born on what was my Grandad’s birthday, weird huh?
Here he is with his big sister my Niece Olivia….who adores him and tells us off when we call him TJ “No! It’s Thomas!” hehe

Here he is with his big brother Connor….he’s not taken to Thomas as well as Livvy has yet but we’re getting there. My sisters camera is really not so good so apologies for the dark pictures…

Here he is on his own in his awesome superman outfit haha

It’s very clear though that he’s not really one for his Aunty Jen haha he really doesn’t seem to like me. Connor when we was a baby would sit with me happy for hours, fall asleep on me, cuddle up everything and is still really close with me but Thomas is taking the same approach as his sister did….just cries when I hold him and is hell to settle when it’s me holding him eeeeep! lol But Livvy grew outta it and loves me now so I know he’ll be the same.

As for livvy and connor here is a recent picture of them they are both sooooooo adorable and growing up waaaay too fast it’s insane! Oh and Livvy isn’t stupid about this whole christmas thing….any present that comes into the house is of course for her…and when you tell her it’s for someone else she totally knows you’re bluffing and says so! When I was a kid I just accepted the “It’s for xyz next door” and thought it was true!!

Recession = SUCKS!

So I haven’t blogged in a while mainly since I’ve been majorly depressed….oh the joy just wanna hear when you’ve stumbled across my blog and have just started reading.
Those who don’t know I graduated in July and I’m one of the many University Graduates who can’t find a job! I’ve applied for loads of jobs and most not even in the area I want to work in, more basic work like office work or retail just because the market is so hard!
So far out of a ridiculous amount of applications I have had 2 rejections 1 interview and far too many not get back to me at all! RUDE!

But today I got 1 rejection and another interview!! The interview has boosted my confidence a little since it’s actually quite an ideal job so I am going to have to really really impress them on monday! It’s just across the way from where I live, it’s a good enough wage to get me by and it’s an admin job which is perfectly fine with me.

Enough of that though, the real reason for this blog; well I was talking to a friend in NY just yesterday who also graduated in June/July….she can’t find a full time job either, she has one until Dec but then is stuck again! We ended up in a big long convo about how basically we just feel like the system has failed us.
Let me explain…the system puts you into nursery, primary school, high school and then pushes you to go onto college and potentially university…they promote this pretty much as being the ideal thing to do, the best thing that will make things better. What they don’t account for is a flippin recession! So now the system is basically like “Hey there is a recession so guess what now we’re kinda stuck so we can’t help you much at all” So after doing everything right by our governments standards and being good citizens……there are now no jobs and no opportunities. So we become the complete opposite of what we wanted to be due to no fault of our own. That’s just depressing!

Just my thought for the day.

Look what I found!

So today I finally decided to clear all my email accounts (Well I say all I still have my university email to clear properly! That one is going to be a killer.) I cleared 1300 from an email account I barely use anymore and then I cleared around 200 from my main account……and well I found an email I got sent from someone at one of my previous temp jobs, it’s a bunch of ponderizms and I just thought I’d share the best ones!

“How is it one careless match can start a forest fire, but it takes a whole box to start a campfire?” – So true! when take my guides on camp I always have to make the fire and it amazes me that it takes so much work! Seriously people do this by accident and cause huge disasters!

“In the 60’s, people took acid to make the world weird. Now the world is weird and people take Prozac to make it normal.”

“Have you noticed since everyone has a camcorder these days no one talks about seeing UFOs like they used to?”

“Did you ever notice that when you blow in a dog’s face, he gets mad at you, but when you take him on a car ride, he sticks his head out the window?”

“Life is sexually transmitted”

“Never take life too seriously, no one gets out alive!”

Also to add…..

I finished Breaking Dawn, The Lovely Bones and The memory keepers daughter!
Breaking Dawn = Love! So good right up until the end! If you haven’t read the twilight series do it now!
The Lovely bones = I couldn’t help feeling a little dissapointed at the ending yes it was good but seemed a little like a short cut off to the end it was odd but the book is amazing!
THe memory keepers daughter = Purely amazing I was just hooked on this book it’s so well written and it spans over a long time in the characters lives but you can just imagine them perfectly and relate to them and it’s just so good! I recommend this book to anyone just read it!

Whats new?!

Well I have finally got my grades and I got a 2:2 which isn’t exactly what I was hoping for but non the less I have a degree and it’s not that bad a grade (Pretty much a C grade) So I will officially be a bachelor of the arts come tuesday when I graduate eeeeeep!
Speaking of graduating my parents bought me my graduation present, so most people get a holiday or a new something or other….what did I ask for recently and got? Two pet rats!
Meet Dell and Rodney

Of course named after the legends from only fools and horses haha.
Dell is the slightly lighter one and is very michievious and gets into everything! Rodney is a little more cautious and doesn’t jump right into things.

Unfortunately for me they like to roam around on my big double bed, which means I am going to have to either a.wash my bedding a lot or b.get them those ball things they can go in to run around so they can go run in other places.

Also got some gorgeous flowers (pictures to follow) from my grandad and aunty Jean (not my real aunty my grandad’s girlfriend lol) he sent them to my work and they were such a nice surprise! Since he lives in scotland now I won’t see him for a little bit so it was really nice of him to do that it really made my day!

Aside from this I’m now on the ultimate job hunt! Right now I’m doing temp work so I’m in the same office my dad works in. But I’ve been sending out job applications here there and everywhere! I’ve been rejected from one so far which was for the BBC, sad times. I’ve applied to ITV and a few other BBC jobs too….ideally I’d love to go work on a tour doing anything right now but *le sigh* it doesn’t seem to want to happen!
So if anyone reads this and wants to give me a job or knows where I can apply that are hiring…pass the details forward! Seriously……email JL88@live.co.uk !!! so desperate grrrr at this recession!

Thats all for now, really shouldn’t be blogging while in work…oh and the Book events people are in the office today….I wanna get some new books! lol

later. x

Currently..

Currently:
Watching:The 4400 Season 4! Loves it but so sad it’s nearly over I hate watching a TV show late and knowing how many seasons there are of it!

Listening to:Backstreet Boys, Oh yeah old school! I keep listening to their greatest hits.

Reading: The very last chapter of Breaking dawn!, The Memory Keepers Daughter and The Lovely Bones – Which has already made me cry!

Wanting to go see: At the cinema I really want to see My sister’s keeper, The book was AMAZING so I’m hoping they can do the book justice! The Proposal – Sandra Bullock never seems to age, is it just me that thinks this?! The New Transformers movie! Although I want to go with the Guys who I went to see the first movie with, the guys from America, Camp Coniston where I was working..I was the only girl to go see transformers, everyone thought I was a tad insane…well apart from the guys who thought it was cool I wanted to see it!

Done Done Done! Whoop!

So it’s official I am no longer a student…..I am now an unemployed bum! Oh joy!
I came back home a week ago and spent a week getting my old bedroom back to a bedroom rather than a junk room, so I can feel a little more comfortable without being surrounded by, a filing cabinet, 10 different computer shells with various computer items!, and whatever else my parents had thrown in here.

Elsewise I had fun before leaving university…..We had our universities summer ball, which originall had Katy Perry has the headlining act, but she cancelled. Can I hear a booo!!!! So we had the wombats who are ok but I didn’t get to see them anyway…..since we got a months worth of rain in one day!
No joke, we had sun the whole week running up to the summer ball and then the summer ball day we had thunder storms the lot..
This was the result…

My housemate Jessica in her fetching poncho!

Us looking oh so happy! Look at my fringe! My hair was perfect before I left, curls with a perfect bouncy fringe!

This was me….my pretty green dress (which was a bargain by the way it should have been £70 but I got it for £12 heck yeah!)

It was fun and we had fun on the fairground rides and such but oh boy it was flippin cold!

Also had our final party with our year group, we hired out a club and it was amazing! one of the guys from our year had his band play and it was just the best night ever!

The dress is a size too big for me and despite tacking the sides in…it still falls down hence needing a shirt…and even that failed me that night haha

Awful picture of me, but I luv these two people! Jessica was my housemate for 3 years and Mark was the first guy I met while at university…we took an elective in Website Design and he became my nerdy friend we could talk HTML and Coding without fear of judgement hehe! We’re both complete technology nerds and love it!

Proffesional Development

So I’m coming to the end of university….infact I have less than 2 weeks before it’s all over! Eeeep and one of my final assignments is “Proffesional Development” now I’m sorry if this starts to bore you but I just feel I wanna get this out there.

This module is basically set so we analyse the industry area we want to go in for the first assignment and then we analyse ourselves in this industry….easy right? Well the first half was and I managed to get a 60..so a 2:1 just….so not bad considering I thought it was a pile of poo!
This next assignment for it is worrying me though, we have to write a reflective statement and then do an analysis or ourselves with our key skills will evidence…..but I’m struggling so much to indentify my key skills.
I can only seem to pick apart the bad things I’ve done……..not the good. Now either I’m being too picky or I suck! I’d rather go for the first one.

But my other issue is I don’t like sounding big headed “I find it particularly easy to enforce these skills and make them effective in a practical situation” “I’m very skilled in this area and the following evidence proves this” I just hate it.

I think I’ve over analysing this…I don’t think it helps at all that I’m giving myself ten times more work by doing my proffesional development in the style of a website! Oh man bad move!

Anyhow I really think I should be doing that right now rather than over analysing it all so I’m gonna end this now!

I’m blogging and I really shouldn’t be doing!

Like the title says I really shouldn’t be blogging right now but I need a break…I’m currently in meltdown from my dissertation, anyone who has ever done a dissertation will know exactly what I’m on about. I’m at that point where you’re staring at your work, writing things but then not realising your writing anything, then forgetting what you’ve written or were supposed to have written.

I’ve stopped myself from doing anything enjoyable or thats a treat….but I gave in last night, I hadn’t intended to buy my housemate Jessica is a bad influence who comes in my room at 10pm and is like “shaun is going to see the new X-men movie…I want to go see it, can we go see it?” I somehow end up checking the times and at 11.30pm we’re going to see the new x-men movie, which by the way is amazing. Given I wouldn’t have done any work after 11.30pm but it did mean I got into bed at gone 2am.

Breaking dawn is calling my name right now, it’s the last book in the twilight series I have to read but I’ve decided thats going to be my treat to buy after my dissertation, logbook and all my essays are completed! So please no one tell me anything about it!

Aside from that I have ummm 3 movies to watch that I desperately want to watch!! One being Patch adams I recently got but I saw when I was younger and I loved it. I want to watch West Side Story for like the millionth time since I love it so much, anyone who hasn’t watched it just go get it…I’ve loved it since I was little. I also have requiem for a dream, after far too many people telling me to watch it I finally will…..after my work!

Ummm what else is new? hmmm I’m PR trained now *dances* well kinda I did a PR spokesperson training day..did I blog about that before? I forget. Also got a lot of plans for after university but non of them include a job as of yet since it seems to be impossible to get a job AT ALL! *sighs* Anyone got anything to offer?

Elsewise I am going to finish my amazing queens guide award with speedy time, going to complete my leadership for guiding and also get my senior section permit. We’re going to London in October too taking all the guides to big gig…should be awesome I can’t believe we’re actually going to do it, these are girls who usually would never see London in their life in most cases so it’s pretty cool, we’ve just got to get the money together we’re going to try a lot of fundraising to get the money. It’ll be stressfull but well worth it to give them that experience.

So if anyone has any good fundraising ideas or knows any company that would like to sponsor an underprivelleged girl guide group to go to london do tell!

I’m listening to the ultimate chick flick album at the moment, loves it I think you should all go buy it! Makes me happy! “If I could turn back time!! If I could find a way!!” Hell yeah!

Oh oh I’m also pretty happy right now that people seem to be picking up that the script are just an amazing band! Recently Kelly Clarkson Blogged about seeing them as the support act for adele www.iamkelly.wordpress.com I think it’s pretty cool they’re getting a lot of publicity in America though since they are just amazing! I only hope we won’t lose them to America like we did Natasha Bedingfield….I’m still waiting to see her in concert after she postponed her concerts here once and then cancelled them the second time *sigh*

Anyhow I am really getting back to my work! AHHHHHH!